It perched on a rail then flew into the glass of our neighbor's side door.
Boom.
The bird made it back to the rail, I'm guessing in a daze.
I've seen this often enough that I knew it wouldn't be long before the robin tried again.
Wings flapping, it flew into the door again.
Boom.
Daze.
Over and over for a couple of weeks now.
Sammy tries to scare it away by beating on our window but it doesn't usually work.
After seeing this poor bird in a rut, repeating it's struggle for the umpteenth time, I begin to see myself.
Getting impatient. Again.
Boom.
Feeling overwhelmed and anxious.
Boom.
Letting my self-centeredness win.
Boom.
Telling myself to do better, try harder is just like Sam trying to scare away the bird to keep it from flying into the door. Good intentions, yes, but it's not enough.
Finally, when I could see the cause of my own "booms" I realized repenting and doing the next thing in faith is what's needed. (How many times have I heard that? done that? And still I forget.)
And then the verses came. Seemed like out of no where but really from the Lord.
A bad day of math translates in my mind to not getting into college because we didn't get to the best math classes. I let my mind go crazy wondering if we need to scrap homeschooling altogether.
"Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself." Matthew 6:34
The house is a mess (again) and we are stepping over more stuff. The laundry is piled up and the dishes fill the sink. I need to get ready for _____ (fill in the blank).
" The Lord answered her, Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her." Luke 10:41, 42
I am grumpy or irritable and the kids are quarreling or complaining. There is so much to do. I just want some down time.
""But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you." Matthew 6:33
I am so thankful that these are the things God uses to show me my need for Him. That it's not sickness or other major struggles.
Do we need to have some order in the house? Yep. Do we need to work hard at school? Yep. Do I need to learn not to be so self-centered? YES!
But in FAITH. All in faith.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight yourplaths. Be not wise in your own eyes." Proverbs 3:5-7


























